just feeling excited!

So i've been feeling pretty lost lately concerning my education and where my life was headed... i've pretty much put my schooling on hold for the past 3 years, taking what classes i would WHEN i could... just trying to figure out how i could make it to my goal of graduating. I felt like i was fighting to swim up stream... against the current.

But today i went to talk to a professor from Central College... where i dream of eventually graduating from... when i get discouraged, i seriously picture myself in my cap, gown, and holding a diploma... standing on the Central green... taking pictures of me with my degree. I talked to the professor about what i need to do to get to Central... and what classes i need to get done at Indian Hills Comm. College before transferring to Central College. I always felt like everyone i talked to never gave me straight answers... never broke it down for me... never directed me in the right direction... always gave me wishy-washy answers concerning my education. But as i sat with her... i told her what i loved, what i'm good at, what i want to do, and what i know i shouldn't do... what my strengths are, what my weaknesses are... and she gave me straight up, honest answers... and broke down every class i should and should not take, what i can do, and what i can't. She actually made a LIST of the classes i need to have before i get to Central, and what classes i can take there. She told me that the whole Administrative Assistant, though i good idea if i wanted to maybe use that later on... would not benefit me all that much... and she suggested i not waste my time, focus, energy, and money on it. She gave me names and phone numbers of people who will continue to help me reach my goal... and told me straight up what she thinks i should major in. English. :) i love it. i feel encouraged and validated. *sigh*

i feel so amazing... i feel like i might actually make it to graduation day. It's gonna be a heavy class load... a lot of work... a lot of money (Central is not cheap)... and almost 4 years. but i feel like i might actually make it. I talked to Justin... and told him what it's gonna take, as far as time and classes... and he was SO supportive... 100%... i told him that it might take him giving up the military until i finish school... or at least trying to get orders to HERE... and he said that we would do what we need to make it happen.

i am so excited... i am thrilled... i feel like i finally know where i'm going... i love it. :)